Cringe.

Watching and listening to yourself for the extensive amount of time it takes to edit a youtube video. (Especially for a newbie like me!) Why is it so uncomfortable?

Is it our primitive brains that just weren't wired to see ourselves in 4K? Were we just meant to possibly get a glimpse of our own reflections in a lake and hear our voices echo in a cave?

Anyway, that's enough philosophy to last me a couple of months. I did finish the video and I'm fighting hard with the urge to procrastinate and redo it all later.

I started filming in the beginning of December of 2021 and I did try some editing, but then I just kept filming, thinking:

“I'll edit later. I probably need more footage.”

I did not need more footage. I needed courage to just start! (So the video is up now by the way, if you wanna watch it and listen to me ramble for about 15 minutes. Lol.)

Since working on the editing I've learned so much! I learned about the editing itself but also that I need to tell a story, which I'm not doing in this first video. I need waaay more B-roll footage and to have an intention with the video. When I actually think about it now it's sparking something within me. The itch to keep learning and growing! How amazing would it be to be able to tell stories with art, video and in writing?


There is so much knowledge to just absorb! I want it all. Now!